<3,snowy-x-spectre.

Monday, August 24, 2009

i've alwaes wondered what its lyk to be bigger. physically n mentally. i guess im growing evryday. so's evryone, we juz dun kno it or dun wan 2.

thre r many things i dun wanna sae, many things i wan 2 but shldnt, many things i shld but cant. life's confusing. a series after another of tests that try 2 make me stronger. i think.

pple shld stop having such biased views. i kno i do too. but we shld try 2 accept dat evrything has a few perspectives, n we cant alwaes be right. hw many tyms does a teenage girl feel so lonely she breaks dwn alne at nite?

tests r supposed 2 judge our abilities. i guess we needa be judged so that we can improve. but stress builds up smtyms. tests, assignments, hmk, lessons, n the cycle goes on n on evryday. dun u ever get tired of it? smdae smone'll be buried so deep he cant get up. dat's prob alr happened.

juz another step. n another. n another for as long as one can go. in the hope dat one dae we'll achieve our dreams. in the hope dat one dae we'll be free of all diz clutter, we'll be able 2 soar abv with wings lyk an eagle's. but arent dreams juz wisps? they arent material, juz a part of our imagination dat we wanna make real. but out of those many many pple who wish 4 smthing evrydae, hw many actually actually get what they wan, what they nid, what they desire? what's the use of striving if you come to naught in the end? isnt diz system all abt grades, n grabbing the opportunity wen it comes? but what if u cant, what if u juz cant jump, cant run, cant feel the breeze in ur hair, cant see the end of diz rocky path? what would u do then.

evrything has a limit. even the sky which seems so endless. even the sea which seems so vast. tym will stop one dae, life will cease to exist, n whre will we be? is thre even a nid to slaughter those precious lives we rip frm their rightful owners evrydae? is thre even a nid to think so far, so deep abt why, what, whre, when, which n hw?

finish diz sentence, then close your eyes n take a deep breath, n dun think abt anything at all.

do u hear life? do u hear nature, do u hear peace? i hear squabbles, the clock, n the music plaeing frm the comp. i start 2 doze, then remind myself dat thre r tests 2moro dat i havent finished preparing for, assignments due 2moro dat i havent completed. is dat really all life is abt?

i juz dun geddit. what's a home... isnt earth my home too? what's love... dun we show inhumanity evrydae? what's a family... doesnt dat include all the other living creatures who 'breathe' like me? what's technology... smthing dat has turned us for the better or for the worse? what's modernization... hw we've become mre humane, more civilised, but yet hw we've destroyed hw earth is supposed 2 be at the same tym?

& its 9.08pm alr. 'tym flies'. its study tym, one of the most common periods of tym in a schgirl's life, isnt it.

even a rock can break; a crystal can shatter.

<3, smthing we nid mre of in this world.

(8/24/2009 08:42:00 PM)