Thursday, August 27, 2009
seeing as hw vanessa saes dat posting lyk the previous post makes me sound pessiimistic, its a gd thing i havent been posting 4 the past few days i guess. =) but i do prefer posting lyk dat, cuz its much mre interesting, dun u find? i do try 2 tke care nt 2 offend anyone thou.anywae, on tues i was reminising(or hwever u spell it), n i realised dat i actually think i can understand y sme pple slit their risks. i think teenage girls hav the highest possibility of doing so at least one in their lifetyms. because pain can provide a temporary relief of all their troubles. but pain cant remove burdens, n hurting urself wun solve problems. i've seen the marks on the inner forearms of pple who've scratched themselves on purpose. i dun believe i ever wanna try.my dad saed it last nite too. life is all abt grabbing opportunities. maybe. but what if u dunno what u're looking for? what if to u life is bleak n even if the 'opportunity' comes along u arent aware of it? n if u miss dat chance it's too late to regret? what kind of lousy logic is dat!?isnt my life supposed 2 be my own? y izzit dat nobody has absolute control over what's supposed 2 be their own, life? y r thre so many restrictions, so many rules, so many regulations we havta abide by? y muz we make so many choices we find unneccessary, do so many things we find redundant, n sae so many things we find useless. note the plural forms, i dun think im the only one who feels dat wae. im asleep on my feet. nt literally, or my head'd hav a big dent, but uhm figuratively. my reallie tired but yet im still awake. my dad saes chi is gne be mre important than eng one dae, soon. i believe him, but i cant imagine dat as a possibility. either wae, im gne hav 2 buck up 4 chi if i wanna tke hcl nxt yr. so dun wanna drop it. wasted quite a few hrs ytd doing teachers dae card drafts 4 np. as in, i side-trekked quite alot, find music etc, but i didnt do much else, so yea one dae dat could hav been spent studying wasted. muz work hard 4 physics ct 2moro!shix stupidly silly suckish & really ridiculously redundant EOYs coming up soon! i dun wanna fail. i wanna do well. i wanna stretch out my wings lyk an eagle n soar in the sky. learn 2 hate, learn to love, learn to be myself.<3
(8/27/2009 03:58:00 PM)
